Fear and Guts in Stage

I was studying second standard in Harvey English school.There was a story telling competition.I had given name for this competition .My mother trained me .I said story of Cap seller with rhythm.I wore newly bought Nethaji Subash Chandra Bose dress and I will throw the cap from stage after saying this story.


"There was a cap seller. He went from town to town to sell caps. Sometimes he had to pass the forest.

At night he kept his caps and slept under a tree. In the morning when he got up his caps were missing.

He looked here and there and heard some noise and he looked up and saw that the monkeys had taken his caps.

The cap sellers threw stones on the monkeys and the monkeys threw mangoes to protect themselves from the cap sellers.

The cap seller had an idea. He took his cap and threw it on the grass. The monkeys also threw the caps on the grass.

The cap seller took the caps happily. ~The End"
It was small stage in Harvey English school.I got second prize in this competition.If i want to say honestly about my character during those days i was so shy to external world and new people i face in life.In annual day my mother took me to annual day function .There was number of people in the function . Some epic drama,music programmes were held.After some time prize distribution began and chief guest started distributing prizes.I didn't want to go to such a big stage but went ton to get the prize.Small cute lunch box.I used to carry same lunch box till tenth standard.Whenever i see the photo i get nostalgic "Cute little boy timidly holding his hands on tiffin box given by chief guest "

Mind Blowing experiences

Last week i had two mind blowing experiences.The good thing about them was they came in unexpected instances.
After afternoon meal ,I was in deep sleep.I was so tired that i lost all my memories in sleep.When i woke up it took me seconds to recollect who i am?I just thought of child hood,college days,people who i met,my friends,people who suddenly disappeared,every sort of random things which i came across for minutes.Suddenly i went back to sleep and started losing my thought process in sleep.When i woke up again realized Sleep relieves you out of your desires and sufferings for short time.

Death is also form of sleep .I wished to die that moment to forget everything and become static .Not everyday i would think like this.But sound sleep gave a kind of peaceful happiness which gave me desire to die.In one point of view , death is not a sorrowful thing.Its a great equalizer for every human being.
I was returning home after working in office.These days i take alternative route from Velachery to Adambakkam.There is newly built 100 feet road from Velachery railway station to Adambakkam.Bridge construction works are going on one side of road .Mostly there is no heavy vehicles in the road.Riding on my Honda Shine feels best in higher speeds.I would be riding in 60 -70 KM speed in this stretch.After reaching this level of speed i started to control acceleration to same level.It was cool night ride with constant speed with great control.Suddenly i got to great concentration levels in my ride .My senses were in highest level.There was one random thought .What if there is no end for this road ?What if i ride in endless road for my entire life without any other necessity like food,water,shelter and other social needs. I would be in this bike riding for all days.I would prefer no sun,no rains,no traffic,no aging process,no relationships ,no pains,no pit shops and endless fuel.Life will become a ride with no end.It will be a boon to be static person in dynamic motion with no emotions.Planets already have this boon.